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I just read this - wow. I don't remember feeling that way but I know it was true. I suspect that for most of late '08 through maybe summer '09 I was undermedicated; for one thing, I was having WAY out of proportion responses to a guy who it turned out just wasn't that into me. His mixed messages didn't help, but I was so close to a breakdown every day that I'm amazed I made it to the other side clean.

But I did, and last Monday chaired another anniversary meeting. It was on the 1st step so much more topic-related than just riffing on my own recovery, but in case anyone is following along, I am in a much better space this year than I was last. Which is good, because the same guy is once again trying to switch up the messages.

I've started acupuncture, I've been more consistent with exercise, and I've cut way back on sugar now that the holidays are over. I'm still unsatisfied with my performance at work and I'm still not meeting any potential date partners; the good news is that by myself is not such a bad place to hang out.